April 2012
13 posts
this will be a funny joke, it’s not a big deal and this is going over the line, I’m conscious of who’s arm in arm, feeling a little obligated, an inflatable woman gives a tour of the city, like a Ken doll talking science, this doll is believed to be very important, very emotional, I’m wearing a bathing suit and realize some things don’t have much value, dump them,...
over the river and through an upscale wooded lot with a big pit in my chest, the wedding and the ride and not really the right gift, what it really means, seems really inappropriate, I’m one of those reality shows, I want to give it, really slow, really well, I could really use some help, I don’t really remember or feel confident, I’m not really following or understanding,...
for a fact Rauan wasn’t born, Rauan claiming he was born in 1925 to get respect, when my baby was born, born with only a head, born technically dead, the doctors made a body for my baby, now my baby has a body, just not the right body, I ask the parents of the baby born with just a chest if I can have the heart,
and there is hesitation,
would seeing my baby change their minds?
it changed...
Rauan near the border trying to stop, no, I’m the border of Rauan, rundown Rauan who hasn’t been updated, surreal and awful Rauan full of purples and blues, moving away to Cornish, not for the benefit of hope, for the benefit of revival, Rauan as a dead language, we were travelling to a place called His before called away to Jury Duty, a few yards into the border we reach the town of...
people with decomposing faces acting normally, not from around here, having to graduate, how hideous this looks, trying to get home before I overheat, right away,
taking the wrong way out, how to get out, on the wrong side and far from where I want to be, wrong direction, wrong road, misspelled and completely wrong, the wrong version, wrong part, wrong elevator, what he’s saying is wrong,...
looking for the restroom, stop and castle look, looking for a bell to ring, looking personable, looking for something fancier, overlooking plastic sheets, looking at the house when it looks like this, look around the many funny dogs, surfer-looking guy, burnt-looking crispy corpse, look at his hair, it’s about 10 different shades, looking forward to my leaving, how funny my abandonment is to...
the form of love between citations, disadvantage of boredom, lack of tragedy, a much bigger closet, interpreting that wrong, filming the love through the bedroom fog, there’s a lot of love in these footnotes, singing love songs over a cell phone, a daily response to love, we should all take a walk, there’s nothing to love at this perfume-sniffing party,
50 words that rhyme with...
feeding from the pool of wave and dragon fire, dressed as a dragon, ferocious until you feed him some brain, running from the wolf, we thought Rauan a paper dragon, we thought we were reading a paper regarding health, vomit in paper in a plastic bag, why wasn’t there any toilet paper?
this is about paper, slicing paper to make ice, a joint rolled in light green paper, a holiday craft thing,...
we work the whack seam together, working up to those small ambitions, the women who work here make fun of me, years to work through this cloud, I wear my hair however I like, make a U-turn to work, so much work with tape, work interfering with work, working a scammy sales job, working nights during the day, discussing work, kitchen work, don’t give specifics, something specific, looking for...
you don’t want to hear about marriage, but you’re going to get it, you’re going to get insurance, you’re going to get her too, the power you’re going to get is negligible, you’re going to get married,
soon, samples of food, worried that you’re calm, presumably, second thoughts, you’re a very old woman, Rauan, you think these are rental agents,...
whatever happens with Rauan happens to me, I wasn’t prepared for this to happen, their assumptions on what’s about to happen is another big influence on what happens, how much do they actually know? first a series of things must happen before the explosion, ask me what happened, how did I let this happen?
because Rauan is stuffed-animal adorable, Corey Feldman adorable, that’s...
how do I keep ending Rauan? to get access one must be willing to walk to the end of Rauan, this end is pretty empty, Rauan as a high-end condo, not affordable, this end feels totally different, at this end Rauan says he’s sorry but he can’t let me through and that’s OK, salvation versus birthright, at the end it’s only Rauan, no refund,
it’s difficult to sit,
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we ask the toddler, why us? what are we supposed to do? the obvious question, the question already asked, Rauan covers his ears in anticipation of the terrible sound, the pain demanding protection,
is this a good time to tell everyone that we’re one of the hundred to change the world?
we are contributors to the scramble, before we enter the massive tree trunk we ask it not to poison us,...
